I Didn't Realize I Needed That

That's how I am today.

Yesterday, after 2-3 solid days of grief with work, I started talking to a friend. I let him know how much I wanted to quit my job and do almost anything else, almost.

For the past 2.5 years, I've been working basically as a contractor for a client, and time and time again I've thought of moving on. What's always holding me back is the amount of knowledge I have to gain to make a career change.

I work with Php and MySQL everyday. Now these are two technologies that are very robust and I've come to know very well. The problem arises in job searching, because I can rarely if ever find a company looking for those primary items on a resume. Instead, what I do see multitudes of, is the competing technology, ASP .NET and MS SQL - basically a Linux vs. Microsoft option.

Here's the interesting part: Although I see tons and tons of jobs for the Microsoft technology, I continue to stick with what I know, the Linux technology. I've only ever dabbled in attempting to learn the other, more as a side thing than a career change thing.

Yesterday, I had an epiphany.

Here I am, bogged down with who I am and what I do, needing to get a change of pace and shift my career a bit, yet I am so stubborn as to think I'll get where I'm wanting to go on a road that I am refusing to move from. If I don't want to be on this road, then why aren't I getting off the exit? Why am I not learning the Microsoft technology to make a change and actually be able to get a different job, and shift my career in the process?

It makes me realize how this world works. That's exactly how living in this world gets. You want to get to Heaven, but you refuse to change the road your on.

Get off at the exit, already.

The road to Heaven is a different road than most of are used to. It's different than what television and magazines would have us think. Aren't you looking at the signs? Do you really think that in Heaven, we're all gonna be talking about some celebrity's baby or the newest Tarantino movie? We're not going to be playing XBox in Heaven.

Heaven is a place where we will be finally reconciled with God. Forever. Maybe to you, that's odd. Maybe it's even a bit scary. If so, then you probably don't know Him all that well, because it's going to be awesome.

It doesn't get any better than what we should be striving for, not necessarily what we are striving for.

I'm going to be spending time learning the Microsoft technology. Why? When I found out about Jesus and having a relationship with Him, I figured it would take me where I eventually want to be - a place that is peaceful, happy, and forever loving. Sure beat the heck out of the destination I had before that - I had nowhere I was headed for.

Head for something better - head for Jesus, head for God - and in doing so you may be happier than you thought you would be.